Friday, December 19, 2014

Always HOPE

The holidays are a great time of family and friends getting together for many people, but it can also be a time of sadness, loss, and hurting for others. I just wanted to post this little note for those who are going through trials and pain to find HOPE in the struggle. There are promises for your future just waiting to unravel.

Last year around this time, we were caring for my mother as she battled cancer. We were praying for her to hold strong after surgery, radiation, and chemotherapy. Our hearts were hurting so badly. I was also single, on meds that put me in medical menopause at the age of 31, and unsure of the future. 2014 didn’t seem promising to me then. In fact, it was downright scary.

Mom and I after surgery 
Today my mom is healthy and getting stronger every day (praise God!). Our family has so much to be thankful for. I am a newly wed (whaaaaaa?!?!) and planning (and praying) for a family. I am also a new business owner, venturing out into the world of online coaching with my own personal training and even more group fitness. I LOVE helping people to become more healthy and happy!

Mom and I during her treatments,
teaching me how to rejoice ALWAYS
Our wedding day - November 1’st - so perfect 

There are many unknowns an “what ifs?” ahead, but there is always HOPE too. I’m not sharing all this to brag about how happy my life is now (there is always more than what is online, people, trust me...haha). I am sharing this to encourage you to look up, to see the blessing in the moment and to rejoice in the madness of it all (just like momma taught us to do as she fought her cancer battle). I am sharing to remind you that you are not alone - tomorrow brings more hope and promises. You just have to hold on. You will get through this time, whatever it is you are going through.

You WILL overcome as long as you hold to hope.

From our family to yours - MERRY CHRISTMAS! Here is to a new year of promises for the future.

Keep on keepin’ on, friends. xoxo

Thursday, December 11, 2014


To begin, NO, I’m not pregnant....yet. ;) 

But I am the healthiest I have been in years - praise the Lord! 

I did the 21 Day Ultimate Reset (more info here ---> - I cut out dairy, grains, caffeine, sugar, annnnd working out for 3 loooong weeks. 

Yes. I stopped working out for a while. How crazy is that?! ;)

I did some small stuff every 3 days or so, but really I just let my body recover and heal. It was HARD, especially for someone like me who is always wanting to move! 

But I am so glad that I did it...and that my husband lived in the process (I can get a little grumpy without working out...heh). 

And you know what y’all? About 12 days ago, I became a woman for the first time in 4 years! heh. Maybe TMI for most people, but not for a blog labeled “endo confessions”. If you are lost on what I’m talking about - I got my period. 

I’ve been on drugs, hormones, shots, etc...for so long that I actually haven’t had a real “Aunt Flo” in years. And I was so thrilled when it did arrive because it was “normal”. I had cramps and they were honestly amazing!

That sounds crazy to say, but let me explain why it was so great....

A cramp isn’t the endometriosis pain. It’s like heaven compared to what a woman feels with endo.

It wasn’t the shooting pains down my sides and down my legs. It wasn’t the stinging in my ovaries the crushing weight in my pelvis, the throwing up and other stomach issues. I could actually move and be “normal”...and use the bathroom without hurting (glory, hallelujah!).

Was it the Ultimate Reset that helped? I think partly. My diet has been pretty clean as can be. Also, a drastic reduction in the amount of stress in my life. 

And prayer.  LOTS of prayer. 

So here we are - mid-December - and in the first time in years my body is acting normally. The doctor told me that this might not happen for another 2-3 months off the drugs. 

But prayer changes everything...even the things that seem impossible.

Whatever it is that YOU are going through, look to the one who created you and formed you - who knows you. Trust that he hears you and keep calling out to him. 

I’m asking you to pray with me, with us, that we can get pregnant. Prayer is powerful. I truly believe that our Creator (and Healer) hears us when we cry out to Him.

Pray that we also continue to trust in the Lord during this time, knowing that his timing is far better than my own. 


“By faith Sarah herself also received strength to conceive seed, and she bore a child... because she judged Him faithful who had promised” ~Hebrews 11:11