Sunday, November 16, 2014

What you won’t always see on my Facebook page

Let’s get real. 

Raw.

Honest.

The highlight reel of everyone’s Facebook newsfeed doesn’t show the whole story.

It shows my heart, my passion, my desires, my loves.

But it doesn’t always show my pain. 

For the past 11 days, I have been off all hormone therapy, trying to get my 31 year old body to wake up out of menopause.

And it hurts. A lot.

I have piercing pain in my abdomen and pelvis when I move a certain way, use the restroom, or my bladder feels too full.

Heat helps. Sometimes I stand in the shower under scalding hot water, trying to burn the pain away.

Just like the doctor tried to burn the disease away with his lasers and cut it out with his tools... time and time again.

I don’t share all this to gain sympathy. I share because I refuse to waste this pain and let it get me down. I will use it instead to help encourage others in their own trials. - encourage YOU. I know there are many dealing with this disease or other pains. I know I’m not alone.

So let’s get more real. 

I’ve been married for 13 days now (yay!).

We want to have a baby (hence getting off all medications).

But if you know this disease, you know this: sex hurts. A lot.

I’ll leave it at that because I believe some things needs to be private, but understand that this disease affects ALL areas of a women’s life and those around her. It is a crushing, debilitating, humiliating, painful condition.

I share this to be real, open, honest... knowing full well that posting something online will expose me to the judgements of others.

And that’s just fine.

Judge away. 

Because I know that someone, somewhere, needs to know that they are not alone with the pain they are going through. Someone needs to be encouraged and lifted up.

So to those who need it, take this: 

You are loved. You are precious. You are valuable. What you are going through today is not a reflection of your worth.

Take hold of that truth and believe it, my friend.

Keep on keepin’ on.

xoxo




Friday, November 7, 2014

New Beginnings!

I haven’t posted on here in a year. Life has changed so much in a year. There is so much I could say and want to say, but the biggest of all the changes have been these 3. 

1) Mom beat cancer. 
2) I got married
3) I am now working for myself and in love with where God has me.

I am going to be posting more often, in an effort to document this next journey my new husband and I are on. No, it’s not another Ironman race (I’ve done 3 since starting this blog and learning how to swim!). We are starting a whole new adventure and challenge when living with this disease -  trying to get pregnant. Please follow along...and keep us in your prayers. 

We don’t know what the future holds. But we know who holds the future.