Monday, January 10, 2011

Leap of faith

"Your daddy is standing in a swimming pool out a little bit from the edge. You are, let’s say, three years old and standing on the edge of the pool. Daddy holds out his arms to you and says, “Jump, I’ll catch you. I promise.” Now, how do you make your daddy look good at that moment? Answer: trust him and jump. Have faith in him and jump. That makes him look strong and wise and loving. But if you won’t jump, if you shake your head and run away from the edge, you make your daddy look bad. It looks like you are saying, “he can’t catch me” or “he won’t catch me” or “it’s not a good idea to do what he tells me to do.” And all three of those make your dad look bad. 

But you don’t want to make God look bad. So you trust him. Then you make him look good–which he really is. And that is what we mean when we say, “Faith glorifies God” or “Faith gives God glory.” It makes him look as good as he really is. So trusting God is really important. 

And the harder it seems for him to fulfill his promise, the better he looks when you trust him. Suppose that you are at the deep end of a pool by the diving board. You are four years old and can’t swim, and your daddy is at the other end of the pool. Suddenly a big, mean dog crawls under the fence and shows his teeth and growls at you and starts coming toward you to bite you. You crawl up on the diving board and walk toward the end to get away from him. The dog puts his front paws up on the diving board. Just then, your daddy sees what’s happening and calls out, “Johnny, jump in the water. I’ll get you.” 

Now, you have never jumped from one meter high and you can’t swim and your daddy is not underneath you and this water is way over your head. How do you make your daddy look good in that moment? You jump. And almost as soon as you hit the water, you feel his hands under your arms and he treads water holding you safely while someone chases the dog away. Then he takes you to the side of the pool. 

We give glory to God when we trust him to do what he has promised to do–especially when all human possibilities are exhausted. Faith glorifies God. That is why God planned for faith to be the way we are justified.”   John Piper

I feel like I’m at the edge of a cliff overlooking the ocean. The dog ready to attack is endometriosis, Lupron, and my mother’s mental illness. The drop over the edge is scary and unknown. God is telling me to trust and hope. To dive into the water with faith, believing that He will carry me with His loving arms when all else has come against me.

God already looks pretty amazing to me. Did he really have to send me to the cliff and allow these killer dogs to chase after me to glorify His greatness? Couldn’t he just heal me and make me a mommy without all the suffering?

It’s here, in this moment of pain and uncertainty, that I realize how small and helpless I am without the Lord. Here, on the edge of a cliff, attacked by disease and hopelessness, God’s glory is displayed. Though the hurt in my heart and body is great, I can smile knowing that He has a purpose in all of this.

God is big. Way bigger than I could dare to imagine or understand. So His plan has got to be big as well.

“...I’m convinced: You can do anything and everything. 
   Nothing and no one can upset your plans.
You asked, 'Who is this muddying the water, 
   ignorantly confusing the issue, second-guessing my purposes?'
I admit it. I was the one. I babbled on about things far beyond me, 
   made small talk about wonders way over my head’.” Job 42

Okay, God, I’m convinced. You are great. You are mighty to save and heal. I’m leaping off the edge once more and into your arms. Please catch me. And hold me close. 


  1. Wow. That was a powerful video...and it perfectly complimented what you wrote about taking that leap of faith.

  2. Yeah, I love that video, girl. Francis Chan’s life story amazes me. It’s incredible to hear all that he has been through, yet still steps out in faith.